I'm feeling damn down now.
I juz came back from the hospital.
Shafiee wake up will you? everyone is waiting!!


All alone after work.
It was a long way down to NUH.
Best still i dun even noe the way..


The hospital is real big.
For a sec i dun noe whr to start finding..
but i was lucky enuff to enter the right building.
when i step out of the lift, my legs became damn heavy.
i dunno why.. suddenly i'm afraid to move forward..
i already cry like mad when i hear his condition, i dunno if i was prepared to face his state.


when i reached, there were quite alot of viitors.
But there isnt anyone i noe..
luckily i somehow recognnise his mum who i saw like 8 yrs ago.
approached her of course.....
the mum is really strong,
she started telling mi his condition right now..
She even showed mi pics when he juz finished his op.


I dunno, i was close to breaking down.
for the 1st time i talk so much to someone who's not responding to mi at all.
his condition is really bad.
He's in coma for 9 days now, i juz found out..
He's running high fever, keeps trembling,
when we talk to him n touch him,
he did respond to us in his own ways.
you can really see he's trying hard..
trying damn hard to live.


On the other hand, i'm really worried abt the mum..
She appeared so strong,
but whenever he tremble or reach a high level of heartbeat, or when the nurse is doing anyth to him...
She's sometimes shocked n oways worrying the every detail.
She can even tell mi wats is artery all that.
Can you imagine a mum who noe nuts abt medical, becoming an expert!?!?
I dunno, it's worrying..


Lucky is he's finally outta ICU.
but the doctor mentioned to the mum,
he wun b waking up soon...
dun expect too much and prepare for the worst..
it's really really heartbreaking..
the mum is hanging strong, cant u even mention someth encouraging..


there, i saw alot of his closest..
his families buddies and gf all for the 1st time..
this guy nvr mentioned he has a gf..
it's not a nice place to find out..
anw, i see shafiees shadow in his families n frens.
they are all soo funny..
they made the atmosphere so much better seriously.
i managed to hold back my tears.


his buddies sent mi back home..
later i found out, he was oso from the same sec.
same batch as junwei. such coincidence....


His that bunch of frens seems to have alot of things..
early this yr, he told mi his good fren passed away from a bike accident..
and ever since he ride slower, much slower..
his gf mentioned another good fren of him, juz passed away yest.
and shafiee is in sucha bad state.
how the frens take it? i dunno.


i need someone to really tok to mi.
i really cant take it.
shafiee, i want u to wake up.
YOU HEAR ME!!!!


you say u r joinng us for gathering..
you still owe mi supper dates..
so much things you've yet to do..
so many ppl waiting for u to wake up..
u have to hang in there..


wake up when u r ready, take ur time, we'll wait for you..