First of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY to dearest cool gal RuiEn and great fren Mervyn!! Been so so so long since i last see both of them.. Still.. Hope everything goes well for them both.

HAHA.. xw is a pretty free gal nowadaes..
i cant believe i dun hafta wake up at weird hours for work..
Back to school life once again.
but it isnt fun.....
i hafta come out with an individual proj by 3 weeks time including preparing for an interview after that.
how exciting..

Outta school topic..
i wenta msia again!!! weee~
was a gal trip..
my mum my aunt n myself..
buy quite alot of things, ate KFC (gosh i love msia kfc!!)..

N for the 1st time my mum told mi so much abt her past..
there was one..
she tok abt one of her ex....
super crazy fan of KFC..
mit her only say "lets go eat KFC"..
den after shopping n stuffs say "lets have KFC for dinner".
MADNESS.
den i asked "so he is v fat huh?"
but my mum say he's skinny type..
jealous man.. how can liddat one!!! tsk.

Oya..
I suddenly realise my taste is quite similar to my mum..
she like to drink ice coffee..
n likes tofu as well..
Just Like Me! or i'm jus lik her..

Following it's a topic i dun really wish to touch.
but seriously, everytime when i hear abt this person i get freaking annoyed.
FREAKING ANNOYED.
for the 1st time my mum tok abt my father, real father.
ok, not everyone noe abt my story..
in brief, i came to singapore only like in later of P1..
when my mum marries my stepfather..
i think i nvr see him ever since 3 yrs old.
cant even rmb how he look lik.
i dun give a damn how he look lik.
for ur info i really hate him, hate him to core..
So for ez calling he shall be named Z, coz i really cant call him father AT ALL.

Ok.. my mum kinda tok abt the past....
When my mum 1st divorce with Z, she managed to take both of us away.. And being afraid that Z will be able to find us, she alone drove all the way to Malacca to look for nanny to take care of us.. Meanwhile she was running all around working to pay for our nanny expenses and schooling fees.. Imagine a girl who noe nuts abt anything running abt alone and exploring a foreign country(Singapore).. I seriously doubt if i'll have that courage if i'm her.. Also, she often comes visit us, coz i used to cry alot whenever she's away, so much so sometimes she couldnt bring herself to go away.. It's only now that i realised how tiring it is to drive thru that journey.. Anyway, it was only like 2 yrs later she got to noe my dad and decided to get married.. At that time, actually my dad family disagree to my mum who oready had my brother n myself along to marry my dad.. But my dad simply didnt bother wat they say and stubbornly went ahead with the marriage.. My mum ever said, if my dad dun bring us(my bro n i) along, she wun agree to the marriage.. All these yrs my dad had been really really great to us, treating us juz like his own.. For this, i seriously think they are really great, i dunno wat to say.. everything that happen juz seems to be so unbelievable to my ears.. Just imagine any part of it didnt happen, i wunt b in singapore at all i think.. i wunt be able to noe all my frens.. i will be speaking a diff language.. ok i think alot. just fate i wld say.

Okay now comes the irritating part..
when i was going to start my sec sch life, i requested my dad to change my surname to his.. coz my frens will often ask whenever they see my dad's name "why is ur surname different frm ur dad?".. honestly i hate that qn.. so my dad agrees.. also only till now i realised how troublesome was the whole procedure.. we actually undergo adoption.. the lawyer handling this mentioned that if Z agrees to the change of surname the whole procedure will be simpler and cheaper.. so my mum went thru the trouble to get in contact with Z again.. My mum told mi.. few times calling Z, Z say he's v bz and asked to call back other time.. N when finally got to tok to Z, Z said why wanna make things to this extreme.. my mum mentioned "whats the point of you holding on to the surname when you dun even see them or take care of them or even give a cent all these yrs", den Z mentioned that he wanna buy us both a house in Johor and ask my mum to let us go stay there he'll pay for our studies in msia.. It's LIKE WAT THE FUCK!!! APPEAR OUTTA NOWHERE DEN ONLY NOE HOW TO THROW US MONEY!! FOR WAT!! WHO SAY WANNA STUDY IN MSIA OUTTA SUDDEN!! SERIOUSLY CANT BELIEVE HE SAID THAT. HE THINK HE'S RICH, MONEY CAN BUY EVERYTHING!! seriously he make mi dislike rich ppl. anyway.. in the end he agreed the change of surname.. you all wun noe how happy my brother n i was when my mum told us once she hang the call.. but in the end when the agreement letter was send to Z, that stupid person had to change his mind so last min and refused to sign. FUCKING IRRITATING. only makes mi hate him more.. he noe that no matter he agrees or not the change of surname will still take place, only faster or slower.. N he bloody hell hafta make things difficult for us. FUCK!

In the end.. my brother still managed to change his surname before i enter sec sch but i dunt. coz the stupid lawyer typed my birth date wrongly. And best still my form teacher forgot to change my surname for abt a mth.. So when my surname was finally changed, ppl started to ask "how come u change ur surname huh?".. wow really thanks man. another qn i freaking bloody hell hate, how u ppl want mi to ans that, freaking busybody!!

And for now, my sister saw my storybooks last time with my original surname on it. I freaking dunno how to ans her when she ask mi how come my surname was different last time.. and she thinks its cute she wanna change surname as well.. gosh.. i wonder wats my dad feeling when he was by the side hearing all these.. i too wonder how my siblings will react when they finally noe the truth when they grow up.. i dun even wanna think abt it.

Honestly, becoz of Z...
i hate guys with bad temper.. coz the only memory i have of him is he fighting with my mum.. i rmb he pulled my mums hair.. so i kinda like wanna help my mum so i wenta pulled his.. in the end he gave mi 1 tight slap.. i was only 3 HELLO!! i hate him ever since, he noe that.. and he still bring us nothing but trouble, only adds oil to my boils!! he jus can nvr pay us bk wat he owes us in this lifetime!! he better dun let mi see him ever!!
I hate guys who r rich.. ppl who like to tell mi how rich they are, oh pls!!
I think guys r all flirt..
I think love wunt last forever..

But becoz of my dad n mum, i still wanna get marry early so that the age gap betwn mi n my children will b small.. i wanna adopt children coz i belieff i can b as great as my dad is.. I think i seriously owe my parents alot. i think they are seriously GREAT!! it's really them who gave mi the life i have todae.. i love my life now truely.

Gosh, it feels so so so good after writing it all out. AHHHHHHHH~ my mum nvr toks to mi abt him b4 i think that might be the 1st n last time she mention abt him.. i think this will be the 1st time n last time i write abt my past too.. no point thinking and reminding abt wats past. N to prevent my third irritating qn "wats ur previous surname huh?", i'm gonna ans it here...

My previous name was LIM SIU WEE, LIN XIAO WEI..
NOW KHOO SIU WEE, QIU XIAO WEI..

ok i think i wrote long enuff.. will update often.. nites to all=)